My why

My Why 💛"

Why do I do this work?

Why have I invested so much—not just in school, but in trainings, certifications, and now psychoeducation—focused on trauma?

For me, the answer has always been obvious: because of my own stuff.

Yes, I have my own share of childhood trauma—more than anyone should’ve had to live with. But more than that, it’s about not letting that history define me. It’s about becoming someone I can live with, someone I can love. Someone I’m still learning to love.

My parents did the best they could with what they had, even if it wasn’t always enough. And I needed to find peace with that.

For a long time, I hated myself. It showed in how I treated myself and my body. But even then, something inside me whispered—and then screamed—that I wanted things to change. That I needed to change if I wanted to stop repeating the self-destructive, generational patterns I was stuck in. I also wanted to be a better person for those around me that I love deeply.

That’s when the real journey began.

I started with traditional talk therapy. It helped—to a point. But something still wasn’t shifting. I knew what I should do, but when the anxiety or depression hit, all logic flew out the window and my body took over. Fight, flight, freeze.

Then I found EMDR. And that changed my life. It helped me understand why I was the way I was. But still—I kept having big reactions to small things. I felt “dramatic,” dysregulated, and ashamed… even though I knew better.

That’s when I found Somatic Experiencing. I learned trauma lives in the body—even when we’re not consciously thinking about it. Our nervous system has its own memory, its own wisdom. And it deserves to be listened to.

I’m not “cured.” I still work on this every single day.

This post is vulnerable, I know. But I believe vulnerability is part of healing. It takes courage to ask for help. To reach out even when it feels like the hardest thing you’ve ever done.

That’s why I’m here.

To be real.

To guide those who are ready—or who want to become ready—for this kind of healing.

You are not alone. 💙